Becoming a MC (master of ceremony) in very formal conference was never i thaught before. Especially if the language is English. I never ever asked to be that profession. Honestly, I still nerveous and unconfident if someone asked me to speak in English due to my speaking skill is not as good as my friends who ever got scholarship abroad or got high TOEFL score. Yes, I ever did get scholarship abroad, but my ability in speaking English wasn't that good. Seriously!. Oke, i might ever got scholarship and ever stayed for couple weeks in US, but i felt that my speaking skill didn't improve so much. My listening, reading, and writing occured improvement, at least, not so much, but not for my speaking skill. Sometimes, people opinion about our competency is bit annoying. I means that, i am not as good as people's thought.
Last night, one of my professor in my department texted me and asked me to become MC in general lecture which will be held by my department. It was little bit sucked, because as i said, i never become speaker or MC moreover who give words in english. NEVER. After i read her message, i took a deep breath for a while, and started thinking. Will i grab this offer?As if refuse her offer by making excuse?. I needed around fifty minutes looking my self in front of the mirror and talking to mine reflection. Yes? or Not?. After considering alot of things, i said to my self that this was very great chance to improve my experience in the field of public speaking. I am often asked by several students body to be a speaker in their event and it is easy enought to say 'yes, i can', but this time, when my professor asked to be MC, i can't say as easy as i am used to. It is kind of weird and annoying. Hufft. But, then, finally, i replied her message, saying that 'yes, i can to be MC'. My world become little bit panicked and then i have to figure out how to be MC who saying full of english word.